Don't Blink

I think with the school year coming to a close life gets super intense and everyone tries their hardest to bring up their grades, even if that means being a suck up to the least of our favorite teachers. I think that the future is a scary thing. And the end of the school year really amps up the stress about the future. With this semester especially, life has been a pain in the butt. Life has shown me the true meaning of life- live for NOW. I've learned that I can't wake up in the morning worried about what college I want to attend or what career I want. I've learned that I have to wake up in the morning ready to delight in today and the circumstance I've been given. I've learned that within 90 seconds, my life could change completely and the normal I once knew, is gone forever. In the blink of an eye, my life was changed. In the blink of an eye, I had to grow up and realize that life is no game. It's a reality. Everything is going to happen for a reason, whether it be good or bad, it happens. Lately, God has really put the shooting on my heart and I don't know why. But it's been a constant reminder to me that I can't worry about my future or if I go to heaven or not. I have to delight in the now moments. I might not ever get these moments back. If that's the case, then why do I spend some of my time crying or being angry? Why not wake up every morning thinking that it was my last day to live? Why not take risks and smile all the time? I believe that it's because of fear. I don't take risks and I don't live in the now moments because I fear that it will have repercussions on my life. I fear that if I live in the now moment that I will regret it in the future. But at this point, who cares? Am I right? You only get one life and you have to live it to the fullest. You never know when God is going to call you home. My goal for the rest of the semester is to WAKE UP. To live life and love it. To go out of my way to show love and joy. To finally understand what risks and life is all about. I'm going to live for me. I'm going to live for the Lord. I'm going to live in the now moment because that could be my last.